Life is way too busy. It goes by in the blink of an eye. I find myself forgetting to do simple things like laundry. Having two sets of tiny hands grabbing at me in all directions I sometimes forget to even go to the bathroom during the day!
I know a lot of moms would trade their lifestyle for the high end clothes and purses or nights out on the town, or on a fancy courtroom arguing someones innocence. Maybe some moms would rather be attending to someone in a hospital bed or teaching a room full of students. Im perfectly fine at home with my two kiddos. Its a busy life, a tiring life, a very lonely life sometimes, but its the most rewarding, most fullfilling thing I have ever done.
The other day Peyton got really hurt and he snuggled up into my neck and held me as tight as he could. His big crocodile tears rolled down my shoulder and he cried "mama mama mama". It erased all the frustration from the three times he got up that night, it covered all the annoying whines I had heard through out the day and it melted me. That's why I am a mommy. Because there is nothing better than being who my children need. And my children being who I need. They challenge me in ways I never could have imagined.
Im pretty tired. Peyton will turn 1 on Sunday, and he still doesnt sleep thru the night. Ella constantly battles me for attention, and we have to be so quiet during the days when Ryan sleeps. I find myself so beat by the end of the day. Right now, parenting is 24/7, meaning, all thru the night. I know a lot of moms get a break when daddy comes home, or the kids go down. They dont really break, they just have time to do a load of laundry or put away the dishes. Then maybe read a paragraph in a book or watch 30 min of a favorite tv show. I dont even get that. I go to bed when the kids do, because I know Peyton will be up and Ella will probably climb in bed with me and kick me all night. I am not trying to complain, but it sounds like it huh? I also see my husband for about an hour a day. I know, I know, there are mommies out there whose husbands serve our country and are on the front lines countries away. But, thats where my life is, and sometimes I am sad. But, then theres the Lord. I have neglected to invite him in the moments I need him most. Majority of the time I am complaining to him, or yelling at him for not resting my sons soul/mind and letting him sleep thru the night.
I read this the other day and it changed my way of venting my frustrations......
While I may be exhausted, I am so glad He is on my side and doesnt miss a single sigh.
All that to say, a year has gone by and Peyton's little life will be celebrated with so much joy! I cant believe we have this fiesty little love in our life. He is truly a character!!! Makes us laugh and cry all at once! He is almost full time walking! He has lots of teeth and the curliest hair ever! He says a few words, and eats like a pig! He loves to be outside, in the water, and with Ella. He adores Ella. He loves blueberries and noodles. He is really long and has a huge head.
I love this kid!





